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Raising the Shield

Raising the Shield

My armor feels heavy, gets heavier daily
and I try to set myself against beasts and brothers,

those hyenas of frustration, annoyance and anger.
Something urges, cheers them on; maybe Murphy.

I would love to cut the throats of these animals who laugh,
watch them gasp, enjoy the dying breaths.

And the other kin — insects of sadness, bitterness, envy,
winged boredom and spoiled bratiness, all crushed and dead.

The jockeying, the battle, the blood aroused and seething,
a furious tangle of inner clanking and gnashing of teeth.

I hear Mother Eustace tell me to pray, offer up all
this pinching and pulling and rusting-up armor.

No, I want to argue, creak and whine for a while,
before I raise the eye shield and let the light in.

Copyright 2006 by Margaret Ellis Hill

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Margaret Ellis HillMargaret writes:
'Raising the Shield' is about gathering courage and calming down from feelings of inadequacy or being criticized harshly, and that all is not lost. But in the meantime, it is okay to be upset, angry, and annoyed. Sooner or later, these feelings will pass.

Margaret Ellis Hill is a native Californian, and her first book of poems, Close Company, was published in 2003 (PoetWorks Press). Margaret's individual poems have appeared in such journals as The Pedestal, Byline, Poetry Motel, Rattlesnake Review, among others, as well as in selected anthologies, including In the Company of Women. Since 2001, she has been honored by being asked to perform at both the annual Houston and Austin Poetry Festivals. Margaret can be reached via email at: Pegleghill@aol.com.

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